life is such and death is such

So two days ago I got some sad news. One of my cousins passed away. He was 26 years old. My heartbreaks for his immediate family. I always get nervous when my dad calls me, afraid its bad news. All to often it is. He tried to start off chipper this time but I was guarded. When he wants to chit chat its during the week early in the day. A Sunday evening call just isnt going to be good news. We have no idea as to why he passed away yet. He was found in his bed. Not that it matters why so much a life was lost no matter the reason but knowing will help bring healing. RIP Robert.

With this news brings thought to my own mortality and those closest to me. I fear for my kids lives almost daily. Riley because of her diabetes and Quinten because of his seizures. I know both could be taken from me at any moment because of their conditions. I hate having that knowledge. Yes anyone could die at any moment but this is different. They could be randomly taken because of their conditions if they didnt have these things it wouldnt be a issue. With type one diabetic (it could apply to other types but I am not sure) there is a thing called dead in bed syndrome. Its more or less like SID's but targets diabetics it doesnt matter the age. It doesnt matter how many times you wake in the middle of the night to check their blood sugars. From what I read they are not sure it is from low BG but from what I gather it most likely is. Its sudden and fast. If its going to happen its going to happen and there is nothing you can do to prevent it. There is a similar condition that could do the same to Quinten but I forgot what it was called now. There are other things with Quinten too tho even one seizure if big and bad enough could kill him. I hate knowing this but I do my best not to have this fear control me or them. For the most part it doesnt but the knowledge of it is always there. I want cures for the both of them so much but until then life is such....