Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Do you ever
get to feeling sorry for yourself? I am having a pity party and your all invited. Ok not really but kinda. I have been thinking of my faults. A subject of school came up and I know why I dont go back. I am not a book smart person. I do not learn from books I learn from doing. I really hate it because I will never become more than I am even if I wanted to. I know this about myself I can try and work hard at school and I wont succeed in the end. I have tried before and I have tried with other things outside of school just to learn to better myself and for get it. I am not that type of person. So while in one hand I am fine with that in another it pisses me off. I know I am intelligent enough in other areas that I dont make a joke out of myself in general so that helps too. Still I cant help but feel subhuman because I dont learn the same way. I cant better myself educationally and career wise because I am not capable of learning/studying form a book. Even during class if the subject isnt 100% interesting to me my mind goes else where. I sound like the boys there but I know its just lake of interest for me. I cant write college papers and I cant take tests either. Talk to me about the testing materials and I can tell you all you need to know but put the pressure of it being a test on me and I fail. Oh well for me life is such..........
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I think you are giving yourself way less credit than you deserve. You are WAY smart! You may not be book smart, but you're street smart. You knew even before doctors confirmed it, that the boys had autism. You've taught yourself how to deal with the autism in remarkable ways. You know how to deal with seizures, and diabetes. None of this was learned at school or in a textbook! Just because you didn't go to college, or continue your education, doesn't mean that you're not smart or that you can't continue to learn - you just have to do it in an unconventional way!
ReplyDeleteYou are right Jen I learn by doing not reading a book. It just sucks schools dont teach that way.
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