Do you ever

get to feeling sorry for yourself? I am having a pity party and your all invited. Ok not really but kinda. I have been thinking of my faults. A subject of school came up and I know why I dont go back. I am not a book smart person. I do not learn from books I learn from doing. I really hate it because I will never become more than I am even if I wanted to. I know this about myself I can try and work hard at school and I wont succeed in the end. I have tried before and I have tried with other things outside of school just to learn to better myself and for get it. I am not that type of person. So while in one hand I am fine with that in another it pisses me off. I know I am intelligent enough in other areas that I dont make a joke out of myself in general so that helps too. Still I cant help but feel subhuman because I dont learn the same way. I cant better myself educationally and career wise because I am not capable of learning/studying form a book. Even during class if the subject isnt 100% interesting to me my mind goes else where. I sound like the boys there but I know its just lake of interest for me. I cant write college papers and I cant take tests either. Talk to me about the testing materials and I can tell you all you need to know but put the pressure of it being a test on me and I fail. Oh well for me life is such..........